I pursued what I loved, but was unwanted by what I pursued. You enticed me with mystery and truth, noble pursuits of the highest kind. You dangled a deeper kind of knowing before me. I remember how you offered sacred wonders and rituals of the strangest sort. How could I refuse? How does one deny … Continue reading Unwanted By What I Pursued
between dusks and dawns
the darkest darknessencircled by the deepest lightholy and blacksaturday followingholyandblack Thursdayholyandblack Fridaythe holyandblack triduum ofbetrayal, violence, and sorrowadorned with brightly colored eggshunting for the goldenmessiah wrapped and unwrappedthe bodysoul deadandaliveproclaiming hope we hopein the love-lit darkness of all theholyandblack days in our holyandblack weekswaiting, yearning, desiringa good news biopsy reporta good news stimulus checka good … Continue reading between dusks and dawns
To Write Without Responsibility
Words, words, creators of worlds! The page, the page, it defines us still.Words that build and words that break. Funny things these are,these scribbles of language.The texts of life that we’re measured by. Words of gods and words of mortals,which prescribe action and belief,law and custom, right and wrong. Texts past and new, forever and … Continue reading To Write Without Responsibility
Image at the Edge of Memory
I stand at the boundary of my mind, the place marking a transition between conscious knowledge and subconscious belief. Frightening are the mind’s thin places, the boundaries where exterior facades fail and the true self emerges. The point at which memories become myths, thoughts lose their certainty, and images are incoherent. Within this clarity of … Continue reading Image at the Edge of Memory
Questions in the Night
I lie awake. Restless, unsettled, disturbed. My mind races at night’s darkest hour. Tonight marks the unwanted return of the unanswerable. I try to sleep. Apprehensive, tense, burdened. It comes without warning. Questions of the deepest sort announce an uneasy transition between sleep and wakefulness. Asking what shouldn’t be asked.Thinking what shouldn’t be thought.Imagining what … Continue reading Questions in the Night
